I want to be close to my family – the little I have left

I want to order Kaiser rolls with whichever deli I want

I want to be close to Italy and my favourite city Venice

I want to visit my great-uncle’s theatre plays in Graz

I want to buy yellow and purple toilet paper to go with my yellow and purple towels

I want to buy raclette cheese all year round

I want to buy Kipferl, Zuckerreingerl and Punschkrapfen

I want to eat Schnitzel – a good one – or Cordon bleu or a Schnitzel roll at least once a week

I want to rediscover Vienna, following Inspector Nechyba’s footsteps

I want to breathe good, fresh air … not the weird, sulphuric one or whatever smell drafts into my apartment when the wind is blowing in the wrong direction

I want to live in a city without crazy people wandering the pedestrian streets in the middle of the night yelling unintelligible things

I want to live in a clean city again where people actually know how to use trash cans

I want to live in apartments without those horrid wallpapers everywhere

I want to have snow in winter

I want to go skiing

I want to speak in my dialect without having to adapt to “High German”

I want to use the words I’m used to and not have to think of the German expressions, some of which hardly coming over my lips without shuddering

I want to be close to the last remains of my parents and dead loved ones

I want to enjoy delicious cakes and pastries without the constant addition of heavy cream

I want to swim in real lakes in summer

I want to buy my favourite groceries whenever I want to

I want to go to the furniture store XXXLutz with my aunt and have lunch there, just like we used to in the old days occasionally

I want to go to the movies and not have to endure sweet popcorn, but have the choice of sweet or salty popcorn (salty is the only way to go …)

I want to celebrate Austrian Easter without having tofreeze the meat and sausages for a couple of years, just in case. And buy fresh Easter yeast bread instead of looking for a substitute

I want to be surrounded by my friends, my real social circle

I want to feel safe, knowing that if I need help, I won’t be alone

I want to buy tissue hankies in 100er bulk not just packed in 10 piece packages

I want to know when the traffic light will change from green to orange thanks to the green light blinking a few times

I want to withdraw money from any ATM, not just from the bank conglomerate my bank belongs to

I want to …



18 thoughts on “I WANT TO …

    1. As soon as I have a new job since sadly the subsidiary of my company seems to be closing down and there is no possibility for me to move back to Austria internally through my company. Hopefully soon one of those interviews will be satisfactory for them and for me …

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  1. I used to see big bulk packages of tissue or toilet papers, but now they just all vanished. And I didn’t know Austrian’s language and Germany’s language have differences. I thought they are the same. Now it really makes sense that they are different. Since Austria was the center of an empire for so many years. It must have a lot of cultural and historical heritage that other places don’t have.

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    1. The differences are like British and American English. We use different words for the same things. And some German words just sound weird to me. 😊 In everyday Austrian dialect there are many influences from the big old empire. There are dialect words especially used in small villages or close to the ex-Yugoslawian border in the lower part of Austria that I don’t know either. Others I have grown up with that others won’t quite know what to do with. (“Strankalan” or “Bohnscharl” for green beans 🤣). Languages are just wonderful. There are German words quite commonly used in the English language, just like other words from other languages (Italian, French, English) we use without even thinking about.

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      1. Yes, I watched a couple of movies, like the Sisi series, and can understand several words or phrases that sound a little like English. I understand what you feel even though my experiences are entirely different. I mean I left the Mongolian Steppe that I grew up in to move to a big subtropical city and then to America. And people I am really familiar with and feel homey to haven’t been with me for decades. How much I love the place i grew up even if it is a steppe with very little scenery and even if everybody there tries to go to other places to work and to make a living.

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      2. Home will always be home and we take it with us in our hearts. From the Mongolian steppe to America is way more courageous, life changing and different than my little 10 year adventure in Germany which – apart from small differences in language, way of life and character – is still very similar to Austria. Do you get home occasionally to at least visit?

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      3. Not recently though. Actually I am thinking of moving back when I retire since it is way too expensive for me to retire in America. If not going back to the steppe, at least go to an affordable country. This is why I am learning languages. LOL. I understand your difficulty since if you just move to a nearby province, the accent, the custom, the manners can be different. Yes, sorry to say that I am not as courageous as that. judging from the fact that I never dared to speak up in front of my parents. Also there are well established Asian communities in America, which helped me a lot. I can’t imagine being the first Asian in America. I mean that really will be a very courageous experience.

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      4. Oh I still think it’s quite courageous, despite the Asian communities. Speaking up in front of parents … I totally understand. I think – apart from everything else – we are from a generation with different “rules” and upbringing than young people today. Certainly more respectful towards older people. Could you imagine one of today’s young students asking their parents whether they might use the landline to call friends? In their 20s? (Even if they didn’t all have smartphones…) Different times, different values.
        Going back to Austria in retirement had been my initial plan. But then last year I realized I didn’t want to stay here for another 20 years but move back as soon as possible, being convinced that this sould be a piece of cake after the takeover by the new company. Since I knew about them having a subsidiary and that there would be a solution for me. Unfortunately not since they announced last fall they would basically shut it down … well, no more passively waiting for me but applying for new jobs. I think it’s a good idea to think of retiring to somewhere more affordable. I dare not even think of retirement and the much less money then available to live on … 🙈

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      5. Yes, moving back asap. What a good idea, but I know sending out resumes and going for interviews are no small tasks. However if you are motivated, you will do it. And probably at this moment, one company in Austria is waiting for a person like you to fill up a position. You only need to apply and to let people know…

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